Is it okay to ask Jesus for a sign that something is going to happen?

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My most intensely spiritual night happened in October last year. That night, slowly, but surely, all of my mental “resources” were drained.

I’d had a series of social interactions that were so intense I needed to get back home to recharge, then was locked out of my home, forcing me to have more intense social situations to get through it.

Then by the time I got back home I was no longer in the realm of sanity. Everyone I interacted with thought I was high.

I built up to a climax, there wasn’t any sleeping that night but after the climax I was at least able to calm down and rest. The climax involved my demanding that something happen, immediately, no more waiting.

The very instant I made my demand, a friend called me out of the blue. We talked for a short while, and the experience finally was able to end.

I cleaned up the spiritual mess I’d made over the next few days, and everything was groovy with the world again.

So I say to you, if you’re willing to throw your whole mental state away and put yourself completely on the hands of God, then you can get taken seriously when you ask for stuff.

But the purpose it will serve won’t be to give you anything. It will be to take stuff away, the false, ugly parts of self that need to go before you can reach your potential. It won’t feel good, or reassure you. You can receive confirmation of the existence of the deity, but it won’t be what you think.

God gives and takes away. sometimes He gives by taking away.