How does it feel when you are enlightened?

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It’s, uh, pretty neat.

Imagine being in the arms of God. He’s always there, always ready to step in, always observant, always willing to offer insight. You know you can never take a false step. There’s no doubt, you can fall and know something’s going to catch you. Whatever issues come your way, you deal with and then move on.

You might think it’d be boring, but it’s anything but. With my mind free of the normal everyday concerns, I can concentrate on higher concerns. Or if I’m a little weary of contemplating the ultimate, I can immerse myself in the day-to-day.

I’m constantly rocking back and forth between present and distant, engaged and detached. I get a little more momentum with each swing. No need to rush, I’ll get there in due time, wherever ‘there’ is.

When I was younger and enlightened it was like being in on a club that nobody else knew about. I went around, having adventures. It always seems a bit weird being so serene while everyone else is going crazy, but I got used to it.

Kinda weird to say this, but I inherited a proneness to anger from my father. It’s kinda fun actually, expressing anger. I like to scheme up ways to express it more effectively and with inventiveness. I like having a character flaw, I think it makes me more interesting.

I’m always looking for ways to be more engaged with the world. My mind feels like a clutch sometimes, if you’ve ever driven a standard. I release the clutch and my mind bites into the world and I shoot off like a rocket. But I have to push it back in because otherwise I’d rocket right out of here. Or to be more precise, a certain part of me shoots off like a rocket, leaving the rest of it wondering what the heck happened.

Sometimes I think I’d like to run a company or something. I may get around to building one soon enough. But again, all in due time. I’m happy and fulfilled, no need to rock that boat.