Not having taken concentration practice seriously when I was young and spry enough to put hours of effort in daily. Well, not so much that I didn’t take it seriously, I just didn’t understand why it was so important. I basically just got into trance and whenever visualizations started arising, I’d basically just kick off an insight session and once I do that, there’s no going back until the next time I meditate.
Now I have a lot less inclination and time for seated practice. My insight skills are amazing, what I am able to come up with with very little effort is remarkable. But this means whenever I want to do concentration practice, I have to force myself to not throw away the object so quickly.
Concentration practice is like exercise to me, it’s work, not an adventure. Should come as no surprise I have a hard time keeping an exercise regime as well. When I was in my twenties I could push through, now I have to find that junction point between discipline and interest, it forever seems to be a moving target though, so I only practice or exercise once in a while when I can be arsed.